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Marc Sells Out and the Happiness of the Now
By Marc | July 21, 2008
This last Friday I took that leap I refused for so long: I created a MySpace page.
The first thing I did after I set up the account and added some info was to look up old high school classmates. You know, see who all went to Chappell High around the same time I did and maybe see how they’re doing.
Then I started wanting to have that connection to the past again. Not in the sense of wishing to relive the days of high school. Good gosh no! I would never wish going back to high school on anyone. More of just wanting to get in touch with the people I used to know.
Then, late that night, the movie Varsity Blues was on TV. (I had never seen it before, but it has that whole MTV young-people-taking-charge attitude.) In it, it seemed like every adult spent their whole time living in the past, like high school was the best time ever and everything else was downhill.
Then I started thinking, like I so often do, about what would have happened if I knew then what I know now. What if I’d been more popular, less of an outcast? What if I’d asked that one girl out? What if I didn’t make the mistakes I’d made back then? It’s nice to imagine, but it doesn’t mean a lot now.
I’m a firm believer that everything, good or bad, happens for a reason. If I’d been who I am now, what basis would I have for learning from my mistakes? If I’d changed anything, would I have been led to the place I am now? Would I be married to the wonderful woman I share my life with? Would my sons have been born?
My life now isn’t what I’d imagined it would be back then. There are things about my current situation I wish were different.
But, the Lord knows where I need to be and I am where I am. I don’t know for sure if that’s where he wants me, but I made it here by the choices I made. And here is a pretty good place to be. It’s much happier than high school, so why would I want to go back?
Topics: Life and Living |
July 21st, 2008 at 2:59 pm
Life is good. Healthy children, no starvation, lack of domestic war. Life is good.